mental

:) well it's a suitable word that describes about me.. I dnt know whý.. my heart always beat for unwanted things... Unwanted love.... Unwanted friendship.. Unwanted life.. I am a loser :( why ?? Coz I don't understand the real world around me.. I cannot understand the real motive of the people in this world... Why the people whom I love the most hurts me??? May be I don't belong to this world....... :(

am back_!!!

hey dear I am back again... I don't know what made me come back here... I thnk it's gods wish.... I could never let her go from my mind.. Y??? I dnt know.. After all these years I still dnt have the courage to say that to her... She is far far away from me.. But there is no day like that I didn't think about her..she was always in my heart.. I always prayed to god that let me have her.. But I know that she does not belong to me... Maybe next life we can be together.. I hope so... Even I had the time I didn't tell her about my love... Why??? The fear of losing her friendship kept my mouth shut... I was afraid of losing her... I know one day I have to let her go.. But I can have her friendship upto that period... HW could I tell her that I love her???? No!!!! I can't in this life.... What if she only thinks me as a good friend ???? Then I am a cheater... I mixed my love with our friendship...... I just can't think who I really am??????????