mental

:) well it's a suitable word that describes about me.. I dnt know whý.. my heart always beat for unwanted things... Unwanted love.... Unwanted friendship.. Unwanted life.. I am a loser :( why ?? Coz I don't understand the real world around me.. I cannot understand the real motive of the people in this world... Why the people whom I love the most hurts me??? May be I don't belong to this world....... :(

am back_!!!

hey dear I am back again... I don't know what made me come back here... I thnk it's gods wish.... I could never let her go from my mind.. Y??? I dnt know.. After all these years I still dnt have the courage to say that to her... She is far far away from me.. But there is no day like that I didn't think about her..she was always in my heart.. I always prayed to god that let me have her.. But I know that she does not belong to me... Maybe next life we can be together.. I hope so... Even I had the time I didn't tell her about my love... Why??? The fear of losing her friendship kept my mouth shut... I was afraid of losing her... I know one day I have to let her go.. But I can have her friendship upto that period... HW could I tell her that I love her???? No!!!! I can't in this life.... What if she only thinks me as a good friend ???? Then I am a cheater... I mixed my love with our friendship...... I just can't think who I really am??????????

maybe lost forever........

yeah guys i am losing her....until now i hadn't told her about my love..i am afraid of losing forever...hw could i??i cant...most probable after three months she will fly from here to her family....once again i am lost forever.when she went for studying i couldn't talk to her much..when the time came she is going...hw can i bear this???????????seems like i had broke my heart...i know she will never b mine..but HOPE makes our life go on.....i hope in one life we will b together..may god hear my prayers and let us live together in one life..i love her that much....hw could i tell her that i am loving her???the moment i tell that i will loose her..she will become angry and will shout at me..and after that she wont call me or even take my call..so y should i?its better that dnt let her know anything..so that i could hold her as my dearest friend....am i doing anything wrong???well i dnt know...you guess...my mind,soul and even the whole body says i am not doing anything wrong....that i love her..i dnt want to miss her in my entire life..i dnt know what i should i say.............i cant resist the feeling that she is going ...I CANT I CANT I CANT.........................................OH DEAR!!!!! PLEASE DNT LEAVE ME.............i dntt know what i am saying....when she only understands our relation as a good friendships...i only loved her because i am sure she is the one who suits for me.........

my dearest frnds...

do u knw who r my dear frnds??????my soul..my sisters and my bro...and my dearest frnds...i cant live without thm....nowadys i am ver much afraid of worst news and happenings...i dnt knw wht hd hpnd?bt it wl tk me more time to come out of this..............

heart breaking.....

i cant forgt those eyes,,,she was looking for help...thn wht hpnd?she lost hr faith accpted hr fate..........why did i saw tht? i dnt knw???????why ddnt tht photographer ddnt hlpd hr frm tht gun?????????? ...................i lost my words..... i today saw a documentary film One Hundredth of a Second.... This short film is based on the moral and professional challenges faced by a war photographer, who comes while capturing images from a war scene.The challenge is that her subject of shot is spending her moments... between life and death.Can you continue your job by just capturing the prize winning moments or should get invoved and help ?. One hundredth of a second is a creative work of Susan Jacobson and Alex Boden team. This short film acclaimed many International Awards.Winner Best film of Manhattan Short festival, New York 2007. Winner Special Jury Prize Funchal Film Fest, Portugal 2006. Nominated for best BBC Films Awards in Birds Eye View section......... i dnt knw any words to describe tht video after watching ths documntry filmm.............why didnt she hlpd tht little girl>>>i still cant frgt the way tht girl looked into the camera...........really heart breakinggg

MY OPINIONS

i never Say my opinions r right....bt i will say wht i thnk wl only b good to me..and nt for others...i just dnt knw wht hpns to me all the time? i only knws tht i always thnk of for the good thngs to be happened to all whom i knw......bt really in sometimes i hope for their bad....my bad i dnt thnk at tht time its same as getting bad omen happens to me :( :( :( :( sorry guys its all upon my head...i wnt to thnk positive thngs to be hpn to you all the time...bt u knw our mind is our greatest enemy..u cant trust it...it always changes according to its timely decisions..u cant do anythng...all u can do is HOPE FOR THE BEST..............

smiley centr....

i thnk its time to start smiling..........lols......yup being avoided by frnds and famitly makes mind sick.....:P what else i could say??????????well please guessssssss it,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,