maybe lost forever........

yeah guys i am losing her....until now i hadn't told her about my love..i am afraid of losing forever...hw could i??i cant...most probable after three months she will fly from here to her family....once again i am lost forever.when she went for studying i couldn't talk to her much..when the time came she is going...hw can i bear this???????????seems like i had broke my heart...i know she will never b mine..but HOPE makes our life go on.....i hope in one life we will b together..may god hear my prayers and let us live together in one life..i love her that much....hw could i tell her that i am loving her???the moment i tell that i will loose her..she will become angry and will shout at me..and after that she wont call me or even take my call..so y should i?its better that dnt let her know anything..so that i could hold her as my dearest friend....am i doing anything wrong???well i dnt know...you guess...my mind,soul and even the whole body says i am not doing anything wrong....that i love her..i dnt want to miss her in my entire life..i dnt know what i should i say.............i cant resist the feeling that she is going ...I CANT I CANT I CANT.........................................OH DEAR!!!!! PLEASE DNT LEAVE ME.............i dntt know what i am saying....when she only understands our relation as a good friendships...i only loved her because i am sure she is the one who suits for me.........

my dearest frnds...

do u knw who r my dear frnds??????my soul..my sisters and my bro...and my dearest frnds...i cant live without thm....nowadys i am ver much afraid of worst news and happenings...i dnt knw wht hd hpnd?bt it wl tk me more time to come out of this..............

heart breaking.....

i cant forgt those eyes,,,she was looking for help...thn wht hpnd?she lost hr faith accpted hr fate..........why did i saw tht? i dnt knw???????why ddnt tht photographer ddnt hlpd hr frm tht gun?????????? ...................i lost my words..... i today saw a documentary film One Hundredth of a Second.... This short film is based on the moral and professional challenges faced by a war photographer, who comes while capturing images from a war scene.The challenge is that her subject of shot is spending her moments... between life and death.Can you continue your job by just capturing the prize winning moments or should get invoved and help ?. One hundredth of a second is a creative work of Susan Jacobson and Alex Boden team. This short film acclaimed many International Awards.Winner Best film of Manhattan Short festival, New York 2007. Winner Special Jury Prize Funchal Film Fest, Portugal 2006. Nominated for best BBC Films Awards in Birds Eye View section......... i dnt knw any words to describe tht video after watching ths documntry filmm.............why didnt she hlpd tht little girl>>>i still cant frgt the way tht girl looked into the camera...........really heart breakinggg

MY OPINIONS

i never Say my opinions r right....bt i will say wht i thnk wl only b good to me..and nt for others...i just dnt knw wht hpns to me all the time? i only knws tht i always thnk of for the good thngs to be happened to all whom i knw......bt really in sometimes i hope for their bad....my bad i dnt thnk at tht time its same as getting bad omen happens to me :( :( :( :( sorry guys its all upon my head...i wnt to thnk positive thngs to be hpn to you all the time...bt u knw our mind is our greatest enemy..u cant trust it...it always changes according to its timely decisions..u cant do anythng...all u can do is HOPE FOR THE BEST..............

smiley centr....

i thnk its time to start smiling..........lols......yup being avoided by frnds and famitly makes mind sick.....:P what else i could say??????????well please guessssssss it,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

courageous talk...(i thnk so)

hi hi.......today i told my friend that i loved her.....felt some kind of mixed emotion on her face......what happened to me i dnt knw...i just spoke of what i thought of her in old +2 days,,,.....yup...she surely nt like tht much..i guess even though she ddnt told anythng i guessed...well guessing is aalways with me.....it never lost....but she said one thng.....dnt b formal...i thnk she loved the ay i spoke... :) it was liking a freaking moment....ohh god hw i said tht i still dnt knw..!!!!!!!!!!! but wht she said surprised me...she whoever gets in touch with her loves...maybe its bcoz of her character..... i loved her character soooooo much..i really liked it....her poetric views and styles made an impression on me..... dnt u guess nw y i loved her?it simple i thnk her character is similar to mine....thats all....otrwise hw shld i gt 2 knw more abt hr? hw i could adjust with her i dnt knw.....but still i loves her so much...nt tht type of love u thnk of...its like a thng u dnt understand bt u feel it......anyways i told her wht i wnt to tell hr in old days...maybe it was best time...i ddnt tell her in past bcoz i was afraid of losing her..in fact i was afraid of losing all my friends..i love them madly.....you knw............ Truly Madly Deeply........................as in Savage Garden...................... oh oh..oh oh. o o ohhhhh......coz i got you..... ha ha just copyng lyrics all english songs...hw bad am i??????did feel it from my post??????u will.....!!!!!!!!!!! coz am really MADDDDDD.................. :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :P.

something........

got a sad weekend...miss all my Friends,,wish they were here with me all time..................y is this happening all the time to all of us?maybe it the rule of nature...tht when we miss thm..they will surely miss us too......sometimes we quarell with frnds for reasons...bt after tht our relation bcoms more thicker than past times...i miss my frnds lot..i ushually fight with them for no reaosons..bt they still loves me....i dnt knw wht shld i gv bk..but i knw i only have my heart beating for themm...feelings grew bigger when they leaves you...thank god there is no here to see my blogs,othrwise they would sleep me on my face..for writting these shits,,.....ohh great,,,i love my friends very muc.......i am mad abt thm......crazyy...wht else i could say?dnt hv guts to share thz n fb or twitter..thz z my secret...i dnt like to publish to the whole world...ooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh its gettng senty may be i should post ths...

lovers life

meaning ful tiltle huh?dnt thnk so.... it suddenly caught up on my mind...wht hpnd to me i dnt knw,,bt i could tl u ths,,,tht i loved tht girl very much and i lost her all of a sudden.....it was my mistake tht i told i loved her,,bt who tht she will leave me,,,why is happening to me always ? i dnt knw,, bt i knw only one thng i still love her..................... dnt blame for thiis..coz i only learnt how to love others and dnt hurt ur friends...nw i dnt knw wht am i doing,,,,just mk it sure thti loved everyone with my heart and not by brain........

another onam days...wish i could go back to my childhood days. the celebrations and all... it wl b always in our minds....happy onam dear... to the unknown..................

have something on my mind..bt dnt know hw to express it......hw should i comply with my intuitions?nw u think i am mad.....its usual...sometimes someone is needed for all of us to stand against the bad times......

its independence here..guess hw am feeling..its wonderful to live in this world by hearing to live am free to do anything under the law.....

This blog is going to become my mind i am going to bring out all my thinkings in here

Crazy heart is now on some crazy feelings:) the life is teaching him lessons so that he could be change into a good man in future

Its very hard to be alone in this world- loneliness teacher up the value of friendship

My gosh:-) how could i describe that i am now an employed person.

Its nice to have sum spce hre. So v cn shre thngs hpns in our life